Sick

I'm sick. Mentally and physically. I think that drinking that bottle of wine and me being sick has some sort of direct correlation. In fact i'm willing to bet that drinking the wine is tha causality to me being sick. If you tell me a bottle of wine can't lower your immune system, you tell my body different.

I've got the sniffles and chest congestion. I had a headache but the lovely people at whitehall robins, makers of advil liqui-gels, made that nasty old monster go away. I would have taken a tylonol, but advil was so much closer and comes in those ever adorable iMac colours. Or is the otherway around?(macs actually come in the gel cap colours)

I read what i posted(see previous post: Drunk), god what the fuck was going on in my mind. I must have been drunk or something :)
well, i noticed that i spelled "comfortable" in a very hideious way. And i meant to say.

while it is a weezer song, i'm proabably sure she thinks i'm obessed with her. Fuck, the wine is making me paranoid and swear.

I also meant to add in that i didn't know she's 1/4 japaenese and it is a whole coincidence that i like that song and use it as my standard n/a message. You see i'll probably bring this up next time i see her. Or i won't, i'm not too sure. The last thing i want her to think is that i'm a psycho, when it is evidently clear that i am. But the moral of the story is, illusion and reality are the same if you can make them think it's. Enought children stories from me.
I don't want to end up like Jonathan Swift.

Oh i swollowed a chewable tablet without chewing, that's how sick i am.

Oh i hope Syl's father is ok, it's too quiet, i haven't recieved word from her in a long time. I worry about that girl. I sent her my best vibes i've got. The last thing that girl needs is more problems. I (and you should too) wish her the best.

Goddamn you Half Japanese Girls, Do it to me Every Time,
(they really do)

Drunk

Yeah i'm drunk right now. I drank a bottle of wine, as did my friends. It's a very different sensation.

Well actually it's all the same, i drank too much and that's final. 3 people, 3 bottles of cheap wine, not a good idea no matter how classy it sounds. Well, time to stave off drinking for a while. As per usual.

Like a creature of habit, i drink until i bust. When i bust, i stop drinking. When? until i can start standing the smell of alcholol again.

Why did i get smashed out of my mind? no reason, i just felt like i needed to spurce up my summer. I've been doing something everyday and that's a good thing because i've been doing nothing but work. But it's a bad thing, because i haven't found a job yet.

No i did not get smashed out of my mind for a specific reason. That specific reason being a certain someone. I got smashed because i haven't been smashed and i felt like i need to pick up some of my shattered remains on tuesday. BTW, i'm smashed as we speak.

I'm classified as a quiet reflective drunk. I don't dick around much, but i get slightly more vulgar. ie i swear, which is a rare occasion. I'm not a cheap drunk, but i'm not expensive ho either. I'm some where comeforetable in the middle. '

In my drunken stupor, i remembere something, she's 1/4 japaense. While this make nosense, it does to me. My N/a message always says
"Goddamn you half japanese girls, do it to me all the time"
while it is a weezer song, i'm proabably sure she thing i'm obessed with her. Fuck, the wine is making me paranoid and swear.

I can't stare at the computer screen any more, my eyes hurt and it's making me dizzy,

In Detox,